I’m in Layers

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so many layers happening simultaneously; you’d think the psychological community would come up with an appropriate term.
Hmmm…
multiple emotionality, many feelinged experience, merged emotional expressions, simultaneous emotional implosion?
but for right now, layers it is.

I fill the tub with steaming hot water, pour in the lavender epsom salts.
he texts me, can you go pick up my package? I missed it again.
haven’t seen him in 2 weeks. My son, who’s moved over to his dad’s.
out I go…dry off…side glance look at the water…already cooling down.
I don’t drain it.

It’s a beautiful five p.m. drive

oh, the layers, right.
empty nesting
buying a house which flows in to talk of second marriages for us both.
hand sewn garment filled with the last 2 months of layers.
almost a year since my last drink.
i’m sure buddha gets it.

he said, (not buddha) the patriarchal chart is more important. I thought, oh really?
and i write the matriarchal lineage back to earliest centuries.
I’m copying words “exactly”….i write the word matter as mother. Tempted to leave it; i change the o to an a, and the h to another t.
It’s alright, I know it’s mother underneath.

draining out the cold parts, re-filling with new hot parts.
like a puzzle taken apart upon completion; thrown up in the air.
we’ll see how the layering falls. perhaps none at all-
experience here, feeling there, emotion(s) all around.

This may very well be joy.

16 Comments

  1. This is unbelievable: such depths and such overflowing wisdom.
    A word that might sum up the combo of the various strands of your emotions is ‘fasciation’, meaning ‘in bundles’.
    You could have fascination for fasciation if you wanted to play about with words 🙂

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  2. smiles…nice…i like your sounds ma’am….we are all layers that is for sure….in life, family psychologically….it gives us depth you know…no need to bring the psychiatrist in to this….haha

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