From “Senjo and Her Soul Are Separated”, a Zen story included in The Gateless Gate (case 35). The question to contemplate is “Senjo was separated from her soul. Which was the real Senjo?”
We take the story into our hearts, invited to reflect as described in the practice “lectio divina” (divine/sacred reading). A monastic practice of prayer, contemplation and reflection from the christian tradition.
In my body form I immediately experience a “coming together”, an interweaving taking place when I hear “When the two Senjo’s met, they merged into one.” Threads being woven, a merging of the Mary who shows herself to the world and the Mary who is seated in the center. In the soul; the seat of my soul.
Located in the area of the solar plexus. The energy in present moment awareness of my son showing himself, energetically, feeling him drowning in, exploring his inside and outside forms. Then, I bring my attention back to “me”. My own self, my own story.
Recognizing as I describe this physical experience there is a weaving together. I am shown an un-tangling; the weaving that has been threaded/woven/created between mother and son through the years. How this seeming comfort of a storyline is being pulled apart (torn/ripped) and a simultaneous newly woven piece of cloth (storyline). In fact, TWO new pieces of fabric/material. One for myself and one for my son. A renewal of relationship through an experience of inter-dependence instead of co-dependence.
How this applies to me(now), is I continue breaking down all the illusive barriers that separate myself from my SELF. The Mary before mother, before lover, before daughter, sister, infant, fetus, soul. Entity. Thought-form. Part of all there is and ever will be.
The poem commentary included in Case 35 by Wumon 9Mumon)*
The moon above the clouds is ever the same;
valleys and mountains are separate from each other.
All are blessed, all are blessed;
are they one or are they two?
once woven together
now returns to beginning
snow melting on grass
*The Hidden Lamp; Stories from Twenty-Five Centuries of Awakened Women edited by Florence Caplow & Susan Moon